Ahhh I had such a great start to my day off. I wish to goodness I could learn to go to bed early and start every morning like this but it's hard when I need alone time and time to write. I woke up and fixed coffee with steak and eggs for my hater (not my lover since she doesn't love me, she just hates on me). She had to run off before I got to eat mine though. Then I had time to listen to some music and I'm writing now. I wish all my days off were like this! Also scored my RHCP tickets today so that was incredibly awesome.
When I stop and think though, about what has made my day a good day, it is that I have been alone. Which is an epiphany moment. I will be ok even if I'm simply alone the rest of my life. I can be happy like that. I long for a companion that reciprocates my "affection" but alone is better than "with" if it's with the wrong person. What makes me think I can get it right if I do it all over again? I suppose it's like I always tell my friends when they ask my advice. You can enjoy mediocre or you can take a risk and have something worth having or you may end up with a handful of shit. You never know until you take the risk. Right now, I have a handful of shit. Mediocre doesn't sound so bad right now.
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