I have never had an extra marital affair. It's not for lack of trying though. Early on in my dysfunctionality I thought that what I was lacking in my life was sex. This was the furthest thing from the truth and I am thankful now that I never "got lucky". In my seeking I happened upon a woman and she was quite amazing to be frank. Beautiful to look at but more importantly she was very kind and extraordinarily intelligent. She shared a lot in common with me, this was my first glimpse at what a soulmate felt like. In the end we went our ways because I made some bad choices at that time but I have never forgot that feeling and I have never forgot true intimacy. What I was lacking in my life was in-fact not sex at all, it was intimacy. I wanted someone to share my soul with that cared and could mentally and emotionally reciprocate with me. I have never stopped searching for that since she cut communication with me. I have yet to find that feeling again but I do know, it is not a myth.
Disclaimer: I am straight and love sex, I just realize what is important in life
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