I will wait

I have been thinking alot about how I want a fulfilling relationship in my life and I struggle with trying to find it.  Maybe I haven't even met that person yet.  Maybe I have.  I don't know. But I do know this:  I will wait until I find that relationship.  I have 9 more years on my promise to my kids that I will stay here in hell for them.  Someday I hope that I am fulfilled in my soul though.  To be made complete by my other half that is floating out there in the nebulous known as life would be my finest moment on earth.  In my observations of human interactions though, I find that we settle far to often for that which is not what we desire.  We may know a person that fulfills us but we are in too big of a hurry to wait for THE right time and we fuck it up by further entangling ourselves in other relationships that are half-ass emotional and spiritual band-aids. Don't short change yourself, when you find that which is worth having, wait.  Wait for it.  It will be that much sweeter if you do.  I promise.  And I also promise I will wait.  I will wait for you until the end of my time or the earth's whichever comes first.