I don't want that

Interesting thought as well I had today is this: I don't want to be with her.  I don't like being around my wife, I dread it.  When she's home I do very little to nothing that I would normally do if I were alone.  When I am alone I enjoy working out, reading, learning, fixing, keeping up.  When she is home I just sit in my chair and try to hide from her so she doesn't continually ask me to do menial tasks.  I try to avoid her firey tongue by laying low.  This is a sad existence, not just because I am always walking on egg shells with her, but because I don't enjoy life.  Furthermore, I think of my parents from time to time.  Dad LOVES for Mom to go places with him.  Maybe more than she likes him to but she enjoys doing things with him too.  They WANT to be together.  I absolutely do not want to be with my wife.  Period.  Another thing I was thinking about is that I don't intend to stay with my wife much longer, only as long as I can take the abuse and not lose my mind, I will be here for my kids sake.  That said, some day I will cut her loose and this kinda makes me sad.  Not sad because I don't want to let her go, but sad because I always wanted to be that old couple who spent their lives together loving each other and growing old.  I'll be damned if I grow old with my wife, I want OUT.  I know couples that have been married over 70 years and I really wanted that to be me.  Not bad enough to be miserable for the rest of my life though!