Not like Bob

I'll never hurt like Bob.  I wish I could. Maybe I will years down the road after I solve some problems, but I really doubt it.  Bob lost his wife last month. This is his first Christmas without her.  He comes into my store almost every day just to get a piece of candy and talk.  He rarely actually gets anything.  He just needs to talk.  It's so heart breaking to see how sad he is.  He is lost without his wife, his love.  What makes me sad as well is, I don't feel that way about anyone right now.  I'm not sure I ever will.  If my wife were to pass in the night it would be a relief.  I would be sad for a very short time, but it would not change my life for the worse.  Matter of fact it would be much better.  I envy people that are sad like Bob.  I have no reason to be that sad.  There is no one that shares my soul and knows my inner thoughts or loves me truly and sincerely.  Bob is devastated today because he does not have his love any longer.  I am devastated every day because I have never known my love. Simply because I made poor choices as a young man.