Now I remember!

Now I remember why I don't care!  I was off work today and didn't go anywhere so I thought ya know what, I'm cooking dinner and doing all the dishes.  She will be happy and it will be cool.  WRONG.  I cooked a descent meal.  I made a pot roast with veggies.  I baked biscuits and made creme brulee.  I washed all my dishes from cooking, made fresh coffee and washed all the dishes after dinner.  The only difference was when she was a bitch towards me she would apologize.  So I would endure an hour of bitchy, then hug and apologize, then bitch, then apologize.  I remember though, I remember how hard I used to try to make her happy, this was a solid reminder of those days.  I will be truthful, these days I don't try to make her happy and this is why.  You can work really hard and get the same freakin results as doing nothing or doing whatever you wanted all day.  You cannot serve her and get the satisfaction of making someone happy or feel special.  She's a complicated individual.  Father God in heaven I wish I could have someone that appreciated my efforts!! Please!