History Repeats

History repeats itself, or so I have been told.  I have many of the same genetic propensities and proplexities that my mothers family had.  I will be point blank with you about some things now.  My grandfather's father killed himself when my grandfather was just young.  It really left a mark on my grandfather in how he deals with reality and death. The irony is, it was always said that his father was driven crazy by his mother and he just couldn't deal with her anymore.  From what I know this is pretty accurate.  The part where history comes in, is sometimes I have a hard time dealing with my wife and my life...actually just my wife.  Life isn't bad at all she just makes me crazy with her nagging and bitching constantly day in and day out and her dissatisfaction even when I go above and beyond what anyone in her life has ever done for her.  Some days I think I want to just end it all.  The good news is, I am a student of history to some extent.  I see the scars that this fate left on my grandfather, I know these would be the scars my son would wear for the rest of his life.  I have determined that if it ever gets so serious I feel I need to take my life to get relief from the life I live I will show her the door.  Take the time to know your family, genetics are very strong and situations are not always so different over the ages know what problems may arise and how you will handle them to correct history and maybe make something a little better for your family in the future. I always say, history repeats herself- because no one listened.