Sunday, January 3, 2016

I don't need nobody

Curious fact I realized today...I don't NEED anyone.  Not yet at least.  I once I'm older, or if I'm ever in a crippling accident things will change.  For now though,  I can do pretty much anything I need done myself.  I can fix stuff, I can cook stuff, I can bake, I can garden, I can hunt, I can shop, I can do laundry, I can mow the yard, I can build/renovate, I can work, I can buy, I can exist on my own.  I wonder what it's like to be in the situation to need someone.  My wife needs me.  I think she can live without me, it's just going to suck.  I also think that the has a needing personality.  I have a very independent personality.  I hope I never have to NEED someone.  I hope I never become needy either.  But I would like to want someone, however, I feel some days (and increasingly so) that I don't ever want to try to love again.  It's such a risky endeavor.  I look at my brother, married three years, now divorced and looking to date again with hopes of getting married.  I don't understand coming out of a toxic relationship that fast and trying to get right back in a relationship.  As someone who is needed, I think that you become dependent on the feeling of being needed, that is my brother.  He wants someone to need him. I disagree, I think we should want someone who wants us.  Wants us for who we are and what we do. Not want us for what we can offer and the life we can improve. That is usery. 

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