used to be

I used to be really good, I used to obey all the rules and do what I should
Then I used to be a failure at school, i used to suck at life, i used to look like a fool
Then I used to be a drunk, I used to carouse the night, I used to be a flunk
Then I grew up, then I manned up, then I got on my feet and took a stand up
Now I am grown I make decisions and choices for which I am known
Now I sit in reserved seating and get pats on the back as I am retreating
Now I excel, now my morale is back, now I am a doctor but there's one thing I lack
I lack love inside my heart, I know what I have been missing all the way from the start
So triumphant and successful how can it be, yet something so crucial is missing from me