A quote from artist Savlador Dali once was "I don't do drugs, I am drugs". I used to think he was being a bit facetious. As I have gone thru life, however, I find this to be actually true for me. I have tried some drugs and alcohol before but they only dampen my mind and make me more ignorant while thinking I am smarter. I drank enough for a while that I was usually buzzed, hungover or just between beers, I never let my body fully detox from the alcohol. In addition I usually had my personality muted by one SSRI or another to help with my depressing life. When I finally decided to detox and try to get my life together and make the best of it I was shocked with the sharpness and clarity with which I think. I stopped drinking and quit my SSRI's for a month and I felt enormously better. It was during that time I remembered I liked to write and I started writing again to deal with my emotions and feelings and thoughts. I have a beer once in a while but I don't get drunk and I do it rarely enough I don't have residual effects. The funny thing is I am more acutely aware now, when I am drinking, of how much it kills my psyche. The constant state of my mind, though, is almost that of being high. I'm not high on myself, I'm not high on drugs, I'm not high on life, I'm not high on other people. I am high on thoughts. I fear this is one of the primary problems we face today in the world as we know it. Almost everyone is using a substance in one form or another to cope and try to make their life better when really, it is not. Our minds are one of our most valuable assets. Get high. Get high on your thoughts. I don't do drugs, my mind is drugs.
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