Uh-oh! We have guests!

The funniest thing about folks where I go to church is they can be the rudest, most inconsiderate bunch of assholes sometimes, but when we "have company" they are so attentive and nice.  It really gets under my skin because this is exactly the two faced hypocrisy non-church-goers talk about.  Last Sunday evening we had a guest speaker and it was a perfect example of this.  Everyone sat attentively and quietly, letting him go over and no one left early.  Had our usual minister been speaking people would sigh, fidget, and walk out.  It's frustrating to me because people are so disingenuous. If you're a freaking prick be one, don't act like you're not just because someone new is around.  If it embarrasses you to be a freaking prick, just stop it. God knows who you are inside and he's the only one we have to impress.  If people in our lives don't like us for who they are then they aren't meant to be our friends.  If we are assholes and realize it, but don't change it, it's our own fault that no one likes us.  Be real, be who you are. 

Theif!

Generally I dont steal quote but I thought this one very quoteworthy. "Something magical happens every day. Go and find it." 

Set Sail

Are you ready to set sail, with the wind to our back we cannot fail

Draw up your anchor, We are setting out for that which you hanker

The sail fills with wind, as we head out on our journey with no end

We float on to the horizon, together as time does pass we can grow wizen

We head off of the map, beyond here lies ye dragons of mishap

Together we can beat the odds, we will sail on the sea of life like gods

So don't hesitate to take my hand, let's set off for another land

Did I already say this?

I don't remember if I said this before, but it's worth saying again I suppose since it's on my mind.  Are you satisfied with where you are at in life?  Can you be satisfied?  Sometimes I'm not sure I can be.  I used to think I could be and would be but my whole marriage thing has gone awry so much that I wonder if this is part of my long term dysfunction from it all.  I'm not 100% sure of any of that though.  I will say that I observe many people as they come in an out of my store.  Most the people who live what I consider to be a lower level existence are generally more happy and content.  Is it because they expect nothing more of themselves or is it because they never think beyond the next sensation.  I mean really, I'm not being mean, I'm genuinely curious.  These are often the type of people I have asked what they are thinking about in conversation and they reply that they are thinking about what they will eat, or what they will watch on TV or if they need cigarettes.  I am curious if this is a mindset, or just what satisfaction looks like.  I think it's most likely a mindset.  My parents both seem satisfied in life but they are constantly looking to the next thing.  They are motivated by their thoughts and make ideas into reality.  Maybe it's simply what divides the existers from the movers and shakers. 

These blood red eyes Don't see so good But what's worse is if they could Would I change my ways? Wasted times and broken dreams

Phone etiquette

It's ironic. I recall a few years back, when "PDA's" were big.  Do you remember PDA's?  I still have one!  I need to dig it out for kicks.  Anyhow, I had installed the Bible on it and would use it during church.  I was in a Bible class one night and since mobile technology was in its infancy people were not accustomed to the use of electronics during something as sacred as church.   We were going around the table reading from the Bible and it was my turn and I read from my handy PDA.  The shock was terrific.  What I didn't realize, and one of my dad's friends finally confided in him was he was shocked with how rude I was, he had been around me all my life and thought for me to piddle on an electronic gadget was beyond immature, not at all what he knew and expected from me.  He was so pleasantly shocked when I began to read from it, and he realized my "piddling" had actually been reading and following along.  The sheer irony of this is now that electronics are so prevalent and I have since installed the Bible on his wifes phone.  But the funny thing is, during Bible class she and others are piddling on their devices!  This is astounding to me because I am very regimented in my device use and I have places I very clearly will refuse to check and respond to texts unless they are emergently related to my business.   Church/Bible class is one of them.  Perhaps it's because school gave me such stringent electronic professionalism guidelines.  I don't know why.  But my dad's friend who was so aghast at me using my device inappropriately doesn't bat an eye at everyone now a days in his class that are using their devices inappropriately.  In my best estimation it is because technology is so rampant and many people, especially people of older generations, have not have appropriate etiquette training on the use of devices in public situations.  Technology and cell phones/tablets more specifically have really come into existence overnight.  Everyone has them and no one was really taught how to behave with them in public.  This is something that is just now being taught to children and it seems like there is no real consensus on what is appropriate and what is not.  It's very interesting to see how culture changes, adapts and accepts so many different things so quickly as technology progresses. 

A good day

Today is going to be a good day, I can feel it in my bones.  I woke late as it is the weekend.  I did miss church which was a bummer but it felt great to sleep.  I have had time to collect my thoughts in solitude and release some of my thoughts and energy both good and bad.   The weather isn't horrible, I think it's a good day to go outside and work.  I hope to get my garage cleaned to some extent today.  That will be my winter refuge from insanity.  I am also looking forward to work tomorrow.  I have most of my messes cleaned up, I have worked ahead and this week at work should be a good and productive one.  Well, it is out to the garage I go