Stop running

Stop running away.  Stop and fight. I know you're running, I know you don't want to fight.  I know you don't want things to be difficult but things are only worth having if they are worth the fighting for.  Don't give up, don't clam up, don't shut up, don't shut out.  Talk about it, tell about it, let your feelings out about it.  Read about it, write about it, don't forget to pray about it.  Stop running, stop hiding, stop pretending and stop the silence.  Let me hear your voice once more- my ears listing for my amour. 

I am tired. I quit.

I am tired of life, tired of death
Tired of having and tired of naught
Tired of loving and tired of hate
I am Tired of caring about my fate

I am tired of starting, tired of ceasing
Tired of running and tired of staying
Tired of standing and tired of sitting
I am tired of it all so I'm quitting 

Quitting caring, quitting sharing
Quitting being and quitting seeing
Quitting praying and quitting staying
I'm quitting all this playing 

I'd quit.....if only could. 

Cool hair cut

Seriously! Who determines popular hair styles these days!  What's with the ugly comb-over with clippered sides.  It's horrible!   A few months ago I went in for my quarterly trim (because I really am that into getting my hair cut) and the lady tried to talk me into getting my hair cut that way.  She insisted it was "popular".  Popular my ass, it's dumb as hell. I've seen the people that have their hair cut like that...some are probably reading this right now but that's OK I stand by my statement.  No amount of justification can change the fact that's an ugly hair cut ya got there.  What ever happened to individualism anyways? Seems like anymore everyone wants to be an individual just like someone else.  Grow a set and grow some hair, cut it the way you want- short, long, inbetweenie,  style it the way you want and say fuck you to anyone that tells you what's popular.  Be yourself or don't be at all. 

Sex on the brain

Upon having discovered that I am lacking intimacy rather than sex in my life, I have determined that sex is the grand distraction.  It can make a mediocre, and even lacking relationship, seem to be meaningful, at least until climax. It can  poison your mind and the ability to make sound judgments.  Furthermore it can ruin relationships if you suspect your spouse or significant other is cheating on you.  For this reason I have determined that extramarital sex is worthless.  If you practice abstinence prior to marriage you show that you have the ability to refrain from sex with someone that you sincerely love even though you desperately want to fuck their brains out.  If you can withstand the desire to fuck their brains out prior to marriage, after you are married, you can be assured that same level of self control will be exercised in maintaining marital fidelity.  If I expect to be able to have a reasonable relationship with ANYONE in the future, I need to maintain the relationship I have now to the best of my ability until it reaches terminal velocity.  If I am to participate in extramarital sex with a someone else then I know that I cannot expect them to be faithful to me later in a relationship no matter how much my mind tries to convince me of that.  Likewise they shouldn't expect anymore from me if I'm engaging in extramarital sex.  

Seasons Change

Cool breeze that blows across the trees
Leaves full of color rustle as they bustle
Slowly yet gracefully, fall to the ground duly
For a moment it is Fall, a moment that is all
Winter is on it's way - then indoors I will stay
The snow will fall and lack of color shall sprawl
The cold will chill my bones as well as my home
The days will be short- my fun it will certainly thwart
I won't look ahead I'll live today instead
In a world of color right here in my holler
I'll embrace today and not worry 'bout my sleigh
Don't fret about tomorrow it will bring its own sorrow
Enjoy what you've got and be happy as you aught

Next Girl...

Love this song!